I slipped.... And more ramblings

The thing about major changes is that they impact lots of people.   Sometimes it's a very direct impact, like with your family, and sometimes the impact is much less direct.


I have  things on my mind -- big changes I want to make, and I've shared those ideas with a few select people.  The thing is, I am a diplomat, empathetic to the point that it makes me crazy sometimes.  Because of this, I  wish to be VERY careful about the timing and way in which I share my desire to make big changes that will impact others.  One thing is for sure:  Facebook is not the way to do that.  I slipped and made a casual comment on FB.  It made me loose sleep and question whether I should delete it, let it lie, or or what.  I decided that I will let it lie.

I need to refine my plan for the big plan.  Break it down into smaller pieces, so that I can start ticking away at it.  I am finding this hard to do.


I do know that step one is that I have to prioritize work.  I've got to focus and stop daydreaming during the day and get my work life in order.  I really cannot even think about moving forward until I look back and take care of some messes I have out there.  Time frame: if I got REALLY serious, 8-10 weeks.  Theoretically, I could be completely caught up by January 1.

Another part of the plan is a financial plan.  This is a little more difficult, and is many faceted.  It's also the part I have to be able to sell to get MightyMo on board.  I am very much a "if it feels right, it will work, God will look out for us" person.  I can make major decisions based on a combination of  faith, information, and planning. Faith is first, and God has not let me down yet. MightyMo makes decisions on information, planning and faith. And when all the planning and information doesn't pan out, faith has seen him through.

I am not very patient about some things.  (Most things.) I have instant gratification syndrome, and this part of planning is no exception.  I want to be able to have everything happen now.  But the reality is, there is lots to be done.  I have a house to update; it  needs major maintenance to (roof, flooring).  Also, I know, because of 17 years in real estate, to get a quick sale, things have to be right. The price has to be right, and the house has to be staged perfectly.  For my family, these things happening while we are living in the house is somewhere between completely insane and impossible.  We need to get out, fix, stage and sell, and have a back up plan in the event things don't pan out.  I have faith that it will work out.  The question is: where to go.  I'd love to find a "lease-purchase" arrangement that would allow me to get a jump start on my big plan. 

That is all on the "personal" side.  There is a whole separate list of things on the "business" side. Somehow, I think this list is easier, but in reality, it probably isn't. Then, I have the complication of constructing a plan that involves real estate, when I have family in real estate whom I am not ready to involve, but ultimately will not understand if they are not the ones to handle real estate transactions. I don't wish to "use" anyone else,  knowing that I have that issue.

Another thing that hit me like a ton of bricks is that I am within 3 months of needing to make decisions about schooling, particularly for Mojo, for next year. I can postpone the decisions, but there is a financial cost to (in the form of registration fees) to keeping options open. I am torn:  Home school or Magnet School.  This also plays into the "where to go" issue, because if I move out of the county, the magnet school option disappears, and then I have decisions to make about BigB, too.


I've sat here and typed myself into near hysteria at the overwhelmingness of it all. And I know, I've only scratched the surface.  I could go start on step one, but I have issues about attacking step one, without knowing what step two is.  I need the motivation of step 2.

I think I will go hyperventilate now.