Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Dear Diary


Most of my posts have zero views.  I am not surprised by this, and anonymity is kind of a good thing.  I used to say that I wanted to be rich and anonymous.  Maybe I should say that again.
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There are a few who stop by the Toliet Water from time to time.  I'm sure they get tired of the whine.  Well, if you are one of those, please know that I am trying to effect a change.  I am trying to be happy. Joyous.  It's harder than it looks.  There are some days where I can put on a really good show.  Today,  I can't. Today I want to crawl under a rock.  Not sure why, or what is so different about today or any other day. 
Anyway, if you happen to be one of my 8 followers who randomly pop in, thanks. I am trying to make this a better place to visit.  I am looking for smiles and laughter in the little things.
So, non-readers, if you are out there, I offer you three cheers for anonymity.  It is a good thing! 



2 comments:

  1. I can so relate...for the few years that I've been blogging, I've had every emotion that comes along with having an "open diary". I've closed public viewing a few times and debated on shutting the whole thing down.

    I love reading your post...and I love that you're real with your feelings. You blog about life and life is not perfect! So keep on keepin on...

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